It's interesting that the decisions you think won't really impact you end up being the ones that change you the most.
Life is confusing.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
M.I.A.
I have not written a blog in a while over here because I started a new blog that I basically write notes to Dallas (my BF) in. I know that is obscenely cheezy, but he likes it and it gives me an outlet to share my feelings about things without making conflict. I recommend you try it if you have stuff to get off your chest. It also acts as a nice timeline... allows you to document events you have together.
Anywho... I have a lot going on right now. We are one week away from moving into the new office. This has been a giant pain and stressor, but I am excited for the end result. I went over there this morning and all they need to do is lay the carpet and some last finishing touches. It's really exciting.
I am in the initial stages of buying a house. Just waiting for my financing to come through so I can make an offer. It's amazing how much there is going on in the real estate market right now, even with the 'recession.' I really hope someone doesnt buy my house before I can put in an offer. The sucky thing is that it is a short sale, so it could be three months before I hear back! Ack!
So, I am all cheezy in love. It feels amazing. People hate me and don't want to hear about it. I forgot what it's like to be bitter. Thank god.
Anywho... I have a lot going on right now. We are one week away from moving into the new office. This has been a giant pain and stressor, but I am excited for the end result. I went over there this morning and all they need to do is lay the carpet and some last finishing touches. It's really exciting.
I am in the initial stages of buying a house. Just waiting for my financing to come through so I can make an offer. It's amazing how much there is going on in the real estate market right now, even with the 'recession.' I really hope someone doesnt buy my house before I can put in an offer. The sucky thing is that it is a short sale, so it could be three months before I hear back! Ack!
So, I am all cheezy in love. It feels amazing. People hate me and don't want to hear about it. I forgot what it's like to be bitter. Thank god.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
As the page turns..
Sometimes getting to the bottom of things is the most challenging part of life. Working through or dealing with thoughts and feelings is never easy, but its necessary. I realize I had been putting some soul searching off for a while, afraid of what I would find. Luckily, because I am a giant pussy, I was forced to sort through all of this shit circling through my brain and heart, and we all had a little pow wow.
I cannot tell you how excited I am about this, because I feel like a blindfold has been lifted from my eyes and it has really allowed me to see. Where once it seemed like my head existed separately from the rest of my body, I now feel whole. Complete.
What's more important is that I am now truly free to love uninhibited and happily. All of the inhibitions and fear that I once felt is resolved, and the past two days I have felt so free and happy.
I am so stoked about this new chapter in my life!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
10 Things I Have Learned Recently
1. My ex boyfriend is quite possibly the largest prick on the planet.
2. Gaining 15lbs in 3 months is 450 time easier than losing 15lbs in a year. Go figure.
3. Antibiotics + alcohol REALLY REALLY REALLY do not mix.
4. Throwing up olive tapenade is the worst possible thing imagineable
5. You can become french in four days by not shaving your arm pits.
6. Silicone breast implants feel way better and way more natural than saline.
7. People get pot hangovers? (it wasnt me, I dont smoke)
8. A good filing cabinet is extremely expensive.
9. My dog will eat ANYTHING. Razors, moldy pizza, paper, hair clips, etc etc
10. 'Black & White' People hardxcore clash with 'Grey' people.
2. Gaining 15lbs in 3 months is 450 time easier than losing 15lbs in a year. Go figure.
3. Antibiotics + alcohol REALLY REALLY REALLY do not mix.
4. Throwing up olive tapenade is the worst possible thing imagineable
5. You can become french in four days by not shaving your arm pits.
6. Silicone breast implants feel way better and way more natural than saline.
7. People get pot hangovers? (it wasnt me, I dont smoke)
8. A good filing cabinet is extremely expensive.
9. My dog will eat ANYTHING. Razors, moldy pizza, paper, hair clips, etc etc
10. 'Black & White' People hardxcore clash with 'Grey' people.
Monday, February 2, 2009
R O Y G B V
Why do I only blog when I'm upset? Actually, I'm not upset. I just have that horrible feeling you get when you know something is about to go terribly wrong. I'm hoping that it's just my body reacting poorly to the Cardinals loss.
I'm a very black and white person, and I operate best when I live within black and white rules. When I start seeing things in grey, things get topsy turvy and I feel like the world is crashing down on me.
Life is so much easier when you think in zeros and ones. The problems start when you read between the lines, look for deeper meaning in things, waste time worrying about potential outcomes or project your thoughts and feelings onto other people.
I feel like I'm floating on a river right now being tossled from bank to bank and I can't seem to find good footing on shore. Everything is liquid. I want solid.
I'm a very black and white person, and I operate best when I live within black and white rules. When I start seeing things in grey, things get topsy turvy and I feel like the world is crashing down on me.
Life is so much easier when you think in zeros and ones. The problems start when you read between the lines, look for deeper meaning in things, waste time worrying about potential outcomes or project your thoughts and feelings onto other people.
I feel like I'm floating on a river right now being tossled from bank to bank and I can't seem to find good footing on shore. Everything is liquid. I want solid.
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