I loooooooooooooove flowers :)
I really love when I get them for no reason :)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
As the page turns..
Sometimes getting to the bottom of things is the most challenging part of life. Working through or dealing with thoughts and feelings is never easy, but its necessary. I realize I had been putting some soul searching off for a while, afraid of what I would find. Luckily, because I am a giant pussy, I was forced to sort through all of this shit circling through my brain and heart, and we all had a little pow wow.
I cannot tell you how excited I am about this, because I feel like a blindfold has been lifted from my eyes and it has really allowed me to see. Where once it seemed like my head existed separately from the rest of my body, I now feel whole. Complete.
What's more important is that I am now truly free to love uninhibited and happily. All of the inhibitions and fear that I once felt is resolved, and the past two days I have felt so free and happy.
I am so stoked about this new chapter in my life!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
10 Things I Have Learned Recently
1. My ex boyfriend is quite possibly the largest prick on the planet.
2. Gaining 15lbs in 3 months is 450 time easier than losing 15lbs in a year. Go figure.
3. Antibiotics + alcohol REALLY REALLY REALLY do not mix.
4. Throwing up olive tapenade is the worst possible thing imagineable
5. You can become french in four days by not shaving your arm pits.
6. Silicone breast implants feel way better and way more natural than saline.
7. People get pot hangovers? (it wasnt me, I dont smoke)
8. A good filing cabinet is extremely expensive.
9. My dog will eat ANYTHING. Razors, moldy pizza, paper, hair clips, etc etc
10. 'Black & White' People hardxcore clash with 'Grey' people.
2. Gaining 15lbs in 3 months is 450 time easier than losing 15lbs in a year. Go figure.
3. Antibiotics + alcohol REALLY REALLY REALLY do not mix.
4. Throwing up olive tapenade is the worst possible thing imagineable
5. You can become french in four days by not shaving your arm pits.
6. Silicone breast implants feel way better and way more natural than saline.
7. People get pot hangovers? (it wasnt me, I dont smoke)
8. A good filing cabinet is extremely expensive.
9. My dog will eat ANYTHING. Razors, moldy pizza, paper, hair clips, etc etc
10. 'Black & White' People hardxcore clash with 'Grey' people.
Monday, February 2, 2009
R O Y G B V
Why do I only blog when I'm upset? Actually, I'm not upset. I just have that horrible feeling you get when you know something is about to go terribly wrong. I'm hoping that it's just my body reacting poorly to the Cardinals loss.
I'm a very black and white person, and I operate best when I live within black and white rules. When I start seeing things in grey, things get topsy turvy and I feel like the world is crashing down on me.
Life is so much easier when you think in zeros and ones. The problems start when you read between the lines, look for deeper meaning in things, waste time worrying about potential outcomes or project your thoughts and feelings onto other people.
I feel like I'm floating on a river right now being tossled from bank to bank and I can't seem to find good footing on shore. Everything is liquid. I want solid.
I'm a very black and white person, and I operate best when I live within black and white rules. When I start seeing things in grey, things get topsy turvy and I feel like the world is crashing down on me.
Life is so much easier when you think in zeros and ones. The problems start when you read between the lines, look for deeper meaning in things, waste time worrying about potential outcomes or project your thoughts and feelings onto other people.
I feel like I'm floating on a river right now being tossled from bank to bank and I can't seem to find good footing on shore. Everything is liquid. I want solid.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Oh, Nine
Wow. I am so incredibly motivated and I have no clue why. Generally it takes me a while to get back into the flow of things, but my new health program has already sunk in and my new way of thinking seems to be working as well!
My big goal this year is to be healthy. This is going to require the most effort because I have spent the past three months destroying my body. I started day one of a cleansing program today. I will let you know how it goes when I am done in 10seven days.
Overall I am really glad to see 2008 gone. It was such a big year of transition and self discovery for me, and I am excited to face the new challenges of 2009 with the knowledge and experience of this past year behind me.
I have one loose end to tie up, and I cannot seem to figure out how to do it. I learned to listen to my heart this past year, but I can't stop letting my head get in the way on this one. I think I need some Nathan advice.
Well anyways, welcome 2009. I am happy to have you here.
My big goal this year is to be healthy. This is going to require the most effort because I have spent the past three months destroying my body. I started day one of a cleansing program today. I will let you know how it goes when I am done in 10seven days.
Overall I am really glad to see 2008 gone. It was such a big year of transition and self discovery for me, and I am excited to face the new challenges of 2009 with the knowledge and experience of this past year behind me.
I have one loose end to tie up, and I cannot seem to figure out how to do it. I learned to listen to my heart this past year, but I can't stop letting my head get in the way on this one. I think I need some Nathan advice.
Well anyways, welcome 2009. I am happy to have you here.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Ketchup
Well, it appears that I have not "blogged" in about 13 days. What's funny is I went to my paper journal at home to write last week and it was about the same amount of time since I wrote there. Yes, I have a paper journal. That's where all the juicy stuff goes ;-)
This was by far the best Christmas I ever had. I was so stoked to see my family open their gifts, and I could have cared less if I got anything. It was amazing to spend Christmas Eve and all of Christmas Day without having to run off somewhere else or split time with Bryan's family. I thought I would feel a little emptier, but the truth is, it felt so right.
I finished recording my bass tracks last night. Drums, guitar and bass are done, now we just have to record vocals. We should have three songs ready to roll early next week, then I can start pestering everyone to buy a ticket for our show on the 17th.
Light rail is open! I am super stoked. It is really going to be a great asset to a lot of people, including me, and I look forward to the opportunity to ride it often. The actual opening day was not really put together well, but hey, this is Phoenix.
No huge NYE plans... going to hang with my crew at a friends house.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE my Blackberry Storm. I am so excited I decided to get it :)
I think that is about all for now. I will try to keep up and write more than once every two weeks.
Ciao~
This was by far the best Christmas I ever had. I was so stoked to see my family open their gifts, and I could have cared less if I got anything. It was amazing to spend Christmas Eve and all of Christmas Day without having to run off somewhere else or split time with Bryan's family. I thought I would feel a little emptier, but the truth is, it felt so right.
I finished recording my bass tracks last night. Drums, guitar and bass are done, now we just have to record vocals. We should have three songs ready to roll early next week, then I can start pestering everyone to buy a ticket for our show on the 17th.
Light rail is open! I am super stoked. It is really going to be a great asset to a lot of people, including me, and I look forward to the opportunity to ride it often. The actual opening day was not really put together well, but hey, this is Phoenix.
No huge NYE plans... going to hang with my crew at a friends house.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE my Blackberry Storm. I am so excited I decided to get it :)
I think that is about all for now. I will try to keep up and write more than once every two weeks.
Ciao~
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